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time... time...
please be faster...
Because I know, time heals almost everything..

Gone with the rain..

when I had doubts in myself
Mist came, blocked my eyes ..
shady ..
convenient ..
and so beautiful ..
I felt like walking on the clouds when the mist was coming ..
its beauty is breathtaking ..
Caught my heart gently
Enchanted my heart
Promised me a thousand dreams ..
and sang lullabies to me like I'm in heaven ..
until I had lost
it was all a shadow
it was all a dream
and like my feet didn't step on the earth..
I was flying
In this beautiful artificial mist
I was not be able to distinguish
Which one is reality, which one is only a dream
killed me slowly..
snatched my breath, ruined my life and I'm so hopeless
Because love is only one
and that beautiful mist is only for a moment
I thought there is real love ...
Obvious, it was all a mere gimmick
and it succeed to get me stuck on there
until I realized
since the rain falling from the sky..
and the mist all gone..
Behind me ...
there is a beam of light ..
are always waiting for me back
and can guide me
take care of me

remind me, that in reality, life is not all beautiful as a dream

but that's the honesty of a love
which I always has been ask many times
without realize it ...
Love is still there ..
Love isn't going anywhere
It just waiting and will hug when I look back

Oscarythm (my first finished novel) The Illustration

First time i made this novel when I was in senior high school..

Its a simple teenagers story. Oscaria, she is lovely girl and she has childhood memory about a boy who can drawing and bring a little turtle and a tree branch. Since that moment, she always want to have a big brother to protect her because she is the older child in her family. So when she become a student of 10th grade high school, she meet three boys.
They are... Rendi, He is university student, game addicted and a rich boy. Ricks, He is 12th grade high school student anime lover, painter, sporty and cheerful. And Zen, He is also 12th grade high school student who loves cooking very much, gorgeous, cool but he is not from rich family.
Since meet them, she become closer to them, and both of them assume her as their little sister. But Oscki confused, who is someone she love more not only as her brother but also as her "love".

Hey give me true love! (The Cover and Synopsis)

This story about a girl who dying.. She meet an angel who want her follow that angel to heaven.. but she didn't want to die and leave the world.. So, there is only one way to make her still alive.. She has a chance to live one more time but no one knows her.. also her family, her friends..
It feels like a dream..

Dark Wind (part one) -a foolish and naughty high school student

Sorry just upload a few sheet.. I will upload later because I must translate into English :)

About Ex... Just forgiving :)

about my ex boyfriend also my ex best friend

We were best friends when we were in high school, and we realized that we had our own world.. but then... we knew we in love.. Tried to care each other..

And unfortunately, we broke up :)

The Last moment as university student

My Graduation Day with my best friend, FelisYufanita.. 24092011


The Final Examination of My Bachelor Degree Thesis :) 04082011
with Anna and Yufan

Dark Wind (my 'stupid' manga) :p Intermezzo...

It's my manga... All in this manga is totally only my imagination and 'real' fiction..
Why i called it stupid? Because i draw it when i was seventeen and i never continued until now.. maybe someday i will finish this manga..
And its contained adult picture.. wew weww..
so, sorry if it looks dumb..
And the story about a foolish and innocent girl who broken heart with her senior, and meet the wicked evil.. (weird? maybe) so don't laugh because its only the imagination of the innocent teenage girl.. :p
And sorry if my draw not like commercial manga because i just draw it with pencil, eraser, rules and paper.. and i learned how to draw by myself (autodidact)

Story from the Sky, The scene Illustration.. part one

In costume party :)


Dyonia is a girl who cannot cooking..
Lonndy is a boy who love cooking very much..
She adores him..

to be continued.. :p

Let it be

Don't just try not to remember the past memories..
But also..
Try to forget it..
Just let it be..
What else..?
Hmm.. nothing.
It's enough

continue...

Let I continue my story...
all about him...
I don't care what they say about him...
What a sin if i love him and he loves me?
We in love for more than a year..
so, what they do care about?
This is my life..
Don't try to arrange my life
I know in the end what we fight, will not be in vain...
If we love each other, with the sincerity and honesty..
Everything is always right..

Lets continue again...
since March 2007.. that's what i called him, My March Wind
then he will be my sun..

ERASE

MARK ALL...


DELETE...


YOUR MEMORIES ABOUT HIM EMPTY



What you did from September 2011 to November 2011, Dhani?


Hmm... of course love my boyfriend, i called him "my march wind, Lonndy" everyday



DONE!!!

i surrender ... !

God,
It is almost the end of this year..
but why God..
Its happen again with me..
a year ago..
I also felt this feeling..
I know how feels being hurt..
but YOU made me feel this hurt again..
I didn't ask you to fall in love again..
I didn't ask you to make me fall again...
I didn't ask YOU..
but Why You did it to me again God..?
Every the end of the year since i knew how to love..
You always did it to me..
Now i feel like fall into the deepest of the valley of sorrow..
and i don't know how to climb it back?
Please, please..
I need the happiness.
Why i always suffer in the end of the year.. ?
Near to Christmas ?
Please..
I SURRENDER ...

I'm yours (part 2)

We've been a long together almost five years..
You are my everything..
Do you want i explain more..?
OK listen..
You are my real sun..
You are my salt..
You are my rain..
You are my breath..
Maybe they all said.. why i choose you to live my life..?
What i get after if i choose you?
They said i will only get a sorrow..
a sadness..
but they were wrong..
everybody can change even in a second..
and also with you..
I can stay with you for long time..
I think it's not short time..
little by little your cold attention to me,
changed to be more warm..
and I know you love me very much in the deepest of your heart..
but you can't explain it by the sweet words.. or romantic things..
you just can protect me when i walk with you..
make me comfortable..
Listen carefully what i like, what i hate..
and try not to hurt me.. by your silences..
because i know, you don't want to promise me many things..
that only can make me dreaming.. and i can be fall if what your promise not really happen..
but you promise me one thing, to love me only..
no other..
and also i know, you always try to make me happy with your own way..
and someday..
i know you will be a good man.. with good attitude..
and leave all your chaos life..
Please be my good man.. to stay with me forever..
in simplicity..
in fidelity..
in happiness or sadness..

love is simple.. but sometimes painful

*maksa cui wkwkwk

i want to love you with a simple
with unspoken words
by the wood to the fire which made it to ashes..

i want to love you with a simple
with undelivered cues
by the cloud to the rain which made it gone..

i want to love you with a simple
but you never give me a chance to see your eyes
or touching your skin
to prove you've been there..

Just end with a word: Adieu

to Mr. R.G

only a wind

finally..
That September Wind never comes..
forever...