i surrender ... !

God,
It is almost the end of this year..
but why God..
Its happen again with me..
a year ago..
I also felt this feeling..
I know how feels being hurt..
but YOU made me feel this hurt again..
I didn't ask you to fall in love again..
I didn't ask you to make me fall again...
I didn't ask YOU..
but Why You did it to me again God..?
Every the end of the year since i knew how to love..
You always did it to me..
Now i feel like fall into the deepest of the valley of sorrow..
and i don't know how to climb it back?
Please, please..
I need the happiness.
Why i always suffer in the end of the year.. ?
Near to Christmas ?
Please..
I SURRENDER ...